which came first the dog or the scrambled egg....is it ...Scrambled eggs smell like dog or ... Dogs smell like scrambled eggs, i cant figure it out ! i dare someone to smell their dog and then go cook some eggs, its very unappetizing. We have new dog, a new child, there thats better she is a sweetie, maddison. We do not have room for anothr dog nor does our dog like other big animals. (she likes anything smaller than her that she thinks she can control, the cats have proved that wrong) however, what are you to do when you go to get your grandmother a cat and the employees happen to mention to you that that sweetie puppy face was born in a puppy mill, then moved to a shelter and now is going to be murdered because people are to stupid to get their animals FIXED! You are to get her and take her home, thats what you do.

I live next door to a drug addict and one of our good friends is a drunk. Its hard to live around so many that don't care when you care so much and feel the need to fix everyone and try to help. If they don't want your help then there is nothing that you can do. An alcoholic and having a baby, ain't that somethin'.

I'm not happy with the way things are going, i need to return to school i miss the atmosphere and i want to learn everything and anything. I want to fix the world and i can't. I want to help but people don't want the  help. I want to make money and have  real job and not be classified as the family MAID. I want to get that house finnished, but i am going to have to break a promise to get that done. Weight is funny you are never going to be satisfied. I'm fat and saw one of my old HOTT pictures and i thought i was fat back then, not so. I want to loose it and i try but i fail. I fail at plenty. Im good at cleaning and even that i get to lazy to do. That it im also good at crying and yelling and loving but what does it matter, i have no skills. My passions fall through into nothingness. I want to be smarter, smaller, happier. I want to be a photographer, but i don;t feel good at it. My husband, a sweet nuturing caring soul, very supportive. It means nothing when you can't give yourself that kind of credit.

I'm ready for a thunderstorm. She will be coming back soon, in a month, what then, nothing happened christmas, what abotu the summer, thats when things go wrong, what will he do. What will i do. Thunder and lighting, black rolling clouds, the smell of rain and anxiety.

Go to a wedding, you'll want one. Work with pregos, you'll want to be them.

I am FEMALE, i am strong, yet weaker, i am outspoken, yet more timid, i am smart, yet helpless, I am always right, yet .... well nothing i AM always right. I bitch i cry i talk sweet i love and laugh. And i like coffee.

I think its time to go out and have some sushi!

Blessed Be and Merry we meet again.